Laugh

I remember one day
I asked you
To help me with my math
You knew I was bad at it
No, you said
I'm not going to do it for you
I didn't ask you to do it for me
I asked you to help me with it
Again you said no, I'm not going to do it for you
Why don't you go fuck yourself
I looked you straight in the eye
Shocked, that look on your face
Priceless
What did you say to me? 
I said go fuck yourself
Your mouth looked funny
Kind of locked there
You couldn't believe it
I'm telling Mom
And you went down to the kitchen
I went in my room
Locked the door
Three my math book on the floor
Laid on my bed and laughed
For a half an hour
But now you're gone
No more laughter
I cry every day
I miss you Jim
All my passwords are about you

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