I made these drawings over the holidays. I just drew, and drew, and drew, until I couldn't draw anymore. I had a great time, but also a difficult time because I was in pain for over a month, and that was not fun. I have pain in a sensitive part of my body where I was sodomized when I was 12 years old. Some things never cease. I'm much older now, but I find the aftereffects of trauma inflicted are long and debilitating. I get reminded of it daily, and I tend to dissociate from my body because it was so emotionally painful. I'm safe now, but I have to remind myself of that on an hourly basis. Triggers are many, and I still have nightmares. I'm growing towards healing, and I'm so grateful for the love of my Mom, for she gives me so much guidance and grace. Jim also guides me from somewhere in the Universe, and his whispered words help me get through my days. I still have "conversations" with my late, big brother, and he shows me every moment of every day, his