Kiss Me Pretty

I hate it when you say
"Kiss me pretty Muffy"
That means I have to perform
Two years old I've had to
Perform oral sex
Have my childhood taken
So now you have an erection
Your large penis goes in my mouth
And you push my head up and down
I want to cry but can't
I hate the feeling up and down
Uncle Felix all over again
Drunk, pees his pants all the time
So now you are like him
Like you're being murdered
And the awful taste in my
Mouth
You roll on your side
Me facing you
And I vomit onto the pillow
It's not food
"Oh, isn't that nice!"
You're angry with me
I hope you don't make me do it again
The taste is making me sicker
Like poison
And you want to be a social worker?
I can't believe I'm whole


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